Downers

I've come to that awkward moment where the development of my critical eye has surpassed my skill level. I don't like most of the art I have produced anymore. I see all the flaws and things that could have turned out better. It's not a very fun place to be in, nor is it very motivating to continue, yet I still know I want to get a professional grade DSLR camera some day.

The home I'm buying is still in escrow, and yesterday a bunch of people came by the house for home and pest inspection or planning the kitchen remodel. Weirdly, seeing our neighbors next door arrive with their three little kids was a wake up call that everything was actually happening. "Those people are going to be our neighbors." Before I was kind of like, "Weee tra la la la la new home! Packing is fun!", and now I'm starting to freak out a little bit over the prospect of being responsible for maintaining a house and putting the money into doing so. Planning the layout of my living room furniture has been a challenge too, because of a fireplace in the middle of the wall and the orientation of my sectional versus where the television should be.

Meanwhile my mom has been freaking out since day one because she's emotionally attached to our current house. She got so stressed that I had to massage out all the knots building up in her shoulders and neck.

With all of these thoughts going on, plus a couple of coincidental mishaps at work, I started feeling terribly anxious and had a hard time calming down. Pretty sure the coffee jitters didn't help. Yikes.

What is happening!

Over the last year or so I've been casually reviewing homes for sale on Zillow and Trulia just for funziez. We all know that I want to move out of the house. The problem has been that my mom isn't comfortable living by herself, and so the only way everyone can get what they want (for the most part) is to move into a large home that can be split into two units.

After walking through an open house of a particular home very close to where I work, we saw a lot of potential for us: a two story house that could be split per floor. The only major renovations to be done at some point on the house include an installation of an upstairs kitchen and a second entrance to the second story via outside staircase and deck. Coincidentally, this deck would provide lots of needed shade on that side of the house. The rest is cosmetic updates to the downstairs kitchen and bathrooms that don't have to be done for years if I can't get around to it for a while. It's on a dead-end and tree-lined street, within walking distance of my work and grocery market. You can imagine how excited I am right meow.

At this very moment, my mom is having her handy dandy and knowledgeable ex husband inspect the home for flaws, so we have an idea of how much we can knock off of an offer we may make. My mom is also going to measure the house to create a floor plan that we can plan renovation layouts off of, however neither of us will have renovation money for a while until my mom manages to sell her current home.

WISH ME LUCK I'M SO EXCITED OMG AM I GONNA BE A NEW HOMEOWNER?