February 28, 2014

The Wind Rises

Hayao Miyazaki's most recent animation releases today in theaters across North America, called The Wind Rises. I was shocked when I thought I read that it would be his final animation before retiring, but found that his statement was retracted on New Years Eve of 2013. Yay! Apparently he's been coming in and out of retirement for years, but I'm very happy to report that he, as of now, intends to produce at least another.



Reading the synopsis and watching the trailer leads me to believe that this particular story is a bit more grown up than his last film Ponyo. It's supposed to be about a man who had wanted to become a pilot, but couldn't because of his nearsightedness. Instead, he used his genius to design and create beautiful aircraft. This story is set in the era of the Great Depression and I suppose goes into that and some Japanese history and events like the "great Kanto earthquake of 1923". I'm really excited to hopefully see the movie this weekend.

Fun facts! Joseph Gordon-Levitt is the voice of the main character Jiro Horikoshi. Emily Blunt, John Krasinski, Stanley Tucci, Elijah Wood, and Glee actor Darren Criss are also starring in the movie. I'm really digging the cast. I hope it is yet another masterpeice, and I'm going to go ahead and throw on the hype I've been hearing, because it's already gotten rave reviews from Japan's release last year.

Other Hayao Miyazaki films I've seen and highly recommend (they* really are some of my top favorite movies of all time, order intended):

*1. Spirited Away
*2. Howl's Moving Castle
*3. Princess Mononoke
4. My Neighbor Totoro
5. Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind
6. Kiki's Delivery Service
7. Castle in the Sky

February 25, 2014

Birthday Gift

For the past two months I've been burying a difficult secret to keep, as it is possibly the most exciting gift my mom and brother could ever imagine. I finally got to tell them about it on their birthday this past weekend. We are going to take a sunrise hot air balloon ride over Napa Valley in early May! Surprising as that may be, yes, I can expect shock and awe, but what I did not expect was UTTER TERROR on both of their faces. It never occurred to me that they would actually be frightened to fly in a balloon.


Upon reflection and a good night's sleep, my mom changed her mind about the terror factor and is now truly excited to experience a hot air balloon flight. My brother on the other hand I had no idea developed a fear of heights and will probably need the help of some anti-anxiety medications in order to participate. I'm hoping the two months of mentally preparing himself will be helpful.

February 21, 2014

"Youth" by Daughter

After moving, my desktop no longer receives internet. As a consequence, I have to move all of my songs onto my laptop (which I started doing this past weekend), but iTunes always makes that so difficult for everyone and I ended up having to search for my songs all over again on YouTube. I'm actually glad this fiasco happened for me though, because I managed to stumble across a band called Daughter. 

I don't often choose new bands to add to my favorites, but this was a pretty easy decision. They are intense, and soft, and poetic. The first song I heard, "Youth", moved me so much, somehow. The drums make me feel heavy, and the way she sings the words "and you caused it" makes my heart wrench. 



Shadows settle on the place, that you left
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time
From the perfect start to the finish line

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong

We are the reckless
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there

And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone
We're setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home
It was a flood that wrecked this home

And you caused it
And you caused it
And you caused it

Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silouhette
A lifeless face that you'll soon forget
My eyes are damp from the words you left
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest

And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone
Setting fire to our insides for fun
To distract our hearts from ever missing them
But I'm forever missing him

And you caused it
And you caused it
And you caused it

February 20, 2014

Dosimetry

I'm a medical dosimetrist. Aaaand there's a high chance you don't know what that is. Don't worry, I didn't know what it was for the longest time, either! Never even heard of it. Well, medical dosimetrists work in the background, so it's only the people who actually work IN the Radiation Oncology department who seem to know what a dosimetrist is/does. I'm here to enlighten whoever is curious about a little known high salary medical career that doesn't require a ghastly number of years in education mode nor ungodly working hours nor the responsibility over the patient as a physician would have. 

I work within the radiation oncology department, with no training or education at all with regard to anything that has to do with chemotherapy or surgery. Those are all different departments. Patients come in to our department already diagnosed with cancer and referred to be treated with radiation. The radiation oncologists consult with the patient regarding their disease and prognosis to come up with a plan on how they would like to progress with radiation. 

Radiation can be delivered two different ways: internally or externally. Internally, we would place a radioactive source and leave it there for a designated amount of time according to the prescription dose and the activity of the radioactive source. This is called brachytherapy. Though it is invasive, it works much better at treating the tumor to high doses while sparing nearby structures much more than external beam radiation because of a more rapid dose fall-off. Because PHYSICS, yo. 

In the cases of external beam radiation therapy, a patient may lie on a table where a gantry rotates around the patient and delivers xrays at specific energies. My job is to customize exactly how the radiation will be delivered for each patient, taking into account the treatment site, prescribed dose, size of the tumor, patient positioning, patient anatomy, proximity of normal organ tissues, and intent of treatment (curative or palliative).


I don't see the patients very often: only if the therapists need help verifying patient positioning or set up. I work at a computer and use a treatment planning software to determine the optimal beam angles and treatment field blocking using a CT scan. 

I really love my job for many reasons. It can be very simple or very challenging. There's problem solving involved that helps keep my brain from decaying over time. It's important to have a good eye for detail and to be able to visualize things well in 3-space. I'm a very logical person, so I appreciate the processes of radiation therapy and how any changes I may make during planning have logical outcomes I can predict, at least with experience.

Depending on the facility and how many dosimetrists work at a given time, it can be really busy or very slow. For me, it has been realllllyyyy sloowwwww recently. In my down time, I've been browsing Pinterest on my phone or trying to teach myself French on Duolingo. Things like "Tu manges comme un cochon." LOL.


Medical dosimetry is an interesting career option for anyone interested in the medical field without having to get too hands on with the patients. After earning a bachelor's degree in any science along with some other prerequisite courses, you can be eligible to go to Dosimetry school, which varies from one to two years depending on where you go. Some universities actually offer bachelor degrees in Medical Dosimetry. You would learn all about gross CT anatomy, radiobiology, radiation physics, and treatment planning techniques. After that, you're ready for a job and you can earn the excessively BIG bucks once becoming board certified (which I am!). Not a bad way to attain a high paying job in so little time. 

February 17, 2014

Kaua'i

September 2013

I've never been so satisfied with a vacation before this one. We managed to fill every day with something amazing to do or see but weren't stressed out about trying to fit everything in in such a short amount of time.






The first two nights were spent in Waimea on a rustic plantation on the beach turned condominium. A number of beautiful things greeted me in this southern side of Kaua'i, including our receptionist Aaron who was avidly enthusiastic about sharing with us which trails to hike on, wild chickens (which ended up being pretty much everywhere), a double rainbow vibrant sunset combo on the beach, a friendly wild cat who happens to love nuzzling my legs, Waimea canyon as one of my favorite places on the entire island, and a catamaran ride by a certainly handsome crew along the Na Pali coast as my other favorite place on the entire island. 

The catamaran ride was a blast, especially heading back because we were going against the waves while the wind picked up, which made it bob up and down and the waves sprayed up at us on each downward plunge. Hanging off the rails up front was like a wet and wild roller coaster ride of awesomesauce where I literally could not stop laughing for all of the exuberant joy welling up within me. 



The next two nights were spent in Poipu in the heart of the resort town on the south shore. I didn't make it there this time around, but along this town's shore is Shipwreck beach where apparently sea turtles come and hang out with you. Why did I not do this? I don't know. What I do know is that I went to the botanical gardens and enjoyed some fresh fruit with our tour guide Sam who liked to tell/show us "illegal" things like other sites of the park that wasn't necessarily supposed to be shown to us. Like the Allerton Estate on the beach where sea turtles nested their babies' eggs. We also managed to visit my favorite restaurant we went to on the island, called Keoki's Paradise. They have a delightful kashiyaki plate. Leaving Poipu lead to a "Tunnel of Trees" as well as Wailea River and the arboretum just west of Kapa'a.




The last four nights were spent in Princeville in the heart of the resort town on the north shore. This may have been the most touristy town there was, probably because there was so much to do. Golf, horseback riding, helicopter rides to the Na Pali coast and the rest of the island, zip lining, kayaking, hiking, snorkeling, scuba diving, surfing, shopping, etc etc. 


Zip lining was already on our list, and it was a good clear and sunny day to go. We trekked through nine ziplines and a suspension bridge. It was my first time ever zip lining, but I don't think I ever really became afraid. I just thought of it as a sort of mild roller coaster, which it kind of was. It ended up being more relaxing than terrifying for me. The last course of the day was on The King Kong, the biggest of them all with two lines side by side so you can race your partner down. I won after catching up to her in the middle, where she gave up and then got stuck before we reached the end of the platform. It's okay, she was laughing. They have tools to pull you in easily. 








After a day of rest and relaxation (at a time very much needed), we ventured back to the east shore in Kapa'a to Kayak the Wailua River. Our tour guide brought us to dock about a mile down on some pebbles (I can't believe he was barefoot) and we hiked a half mile to have lunch under a "secret" waterfall. Some people went swimming under it, and the group can stay however long they want until everyone is ready to go. Walking back to the kayaks from the waterfall, our tour guide went "Shhh. Do you guys feel that? It's going to rain." And everyone was confused but it started raining 1-2 minutes later. Natives feel the rain, dude. They do.


It seemed that by our last day we were satiated of Kaua'i and wanted to go home, but not before my mom went out on the porch to feed all the birds like a Disney Princess. 

February 16, 2014

My Return

Coming back into blogging after a long period of time, some people may be able to say, "You might remember me from such and such a blog". I had, after all, maintained a blog or two of teenage rants for an accumulation of about seven or eight years? But this wasn't a large community of followers. And there were lots of lost memories. All I can think about reading old entries is, was this person really me? Was I really so naive? Arrogant? Shallow? I'll try not to be that way again. But you know, no matter how old you are, there will be an older you who thinks just as well.

The content of this blog "Bildungsroman" will be dedicated to many photographs and stories of various times of my life I feel like sharing. I may dip into childhood or update with current vacations. It's been pretty helpful that I had recently finished a photo album of my life from birth to the present, a rather lengthy chronicle. Of course, I'm not expecting a huge response from others with regards to commenting on my life story, but I plan to put a more objective viewpoint on my past, perhaps with a bit more humor, too.